A work in Progress….

I have been absent for a couple of weeks from this blog. I mean I have written a few reviews but that’s it. I have been busy with work, a lot of yoga, my wonderful boyfriend, and the continued work on myself. I have been…very happy. I can tell, others can tell as well. You want to see proof? Of course you do!

Not a perfect picture, my hair is in my face, I could name so many things wrong with this picture but I won’t. I’m just happy. And calm. And less anxious. And have a clearer plan of my life and what I would like to accomplish. As of this moment I am at peace with the last several years, what I’ve been through and I’m the happiest I have been in a long time! Now since we have talked I have been on a great adventure to a horror convention. Texas Frightmare Weekend was a blast the first weekend of May. This year I only attended Saturday- trying to stay in a budget- yay for adulting lol. You can read my post on Texas Frightmare Weekend for the details! I also saw Justin Timberlake for the third time-you can see my review on his tour for the details- you don’t want to miss that one!

Since these adventures, my anxiety has been creeping back in very slowly….

At the end of last year, I worked with a health coach/life coach which completely changed my life and my relationship with food…. how I view food, no more dieting and how I view my body. I did so much work on myself at that time and it set me free from dieting but my negative thoughts have been creeping back in lately. The thinking I’m fat, pulling at fat, criticizing myself in front of every mirror, every picture is under a microscope. I’ve had to revert back to my journal from that time with the life coach to calm my mind…. which has helped some. I’ve noticed the binge eating is back mildly…. I’ve been trying to eat something healthy each day, pay attention to my feelings when I’m eating and making sure that I’m actually hungry when eating and not eating due to emotions. Man, this is difficult for me but it does get better…. Now, I do work out but as of the last week I had a few days off, wasn’t as active and my water intake was below my average. When that happens, it throws my mood off and the negativity starts to come back. Even though I know this, it will still happen, which is frustrating.

I canceled my gym membership– or it’s on my list to do 🙂 I do workouts at home, go to yoga classes consistently! I enjoy my workouts, I’m not a slave to the gym. I absolutely hate the gym!

I do yoga at home with Ellie Mae. I also love going to CommUNITY yoga! It’s a great but super tough work out. I mean I feel like I’m going to die, but somehow I find the strength to finish- kinda like trials that I’m going through. Yoga has helped me put a different perspective on situations and see all situations differently and from all angles. I handle life with more calmness now which is so much different than I used to be. Any situation would throw me into an anxious mode and throw my whole day off- now I just handle things as they come…no worries. I mean I still have my anxious days but they are far less in between.

Yoga has taught me to let go and to BREATHE! You know how difficult it is to breathe? Not very but difficult to consciously remind my body to take deep breaths and not hold my breath. I hold on to so much just by holding my breath- so it helps me to start the day with a simple yoga sequence and meditation. I have several sequences in books and on my Pinterest page. If y’all want me to do a blog about that, let me know and I would be glad to!

Hopefully this message will find who needs it… and you will begin healing and or continue to heal!❤️

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