If you have been following my blog, I’m sure you have seen my ups and downs: my flaws, my struggles, my constant anxiety as well as my growth. Right now as I’m writing this- my living room window is open, fresh air coming in, Ellie looking out the window and I’m at the kitchen table soaking it all in…being still.
Today’s word of the day is Gratitude.
It has been on my mind and a struggle for me lately. I tend to think of the things I don’t have..things I haven’t achieved yet- having a family, owning a house, or being an adult. In reality, I have so much to be thankful for- my family that supports what I do, being independent, having a great career, being healthy, being able to walk, having someone special in my life, I have a dog who loves me…I am able to do so much and experience so much and don’t take enough time and think how lucky I am.
I am thankful to have a healthy body that allows me to complete a work day of helping people.
I am thankful for my body’s ability to be strong enough to complete yoga, running and weights so I can be healthier and stronger!
I am thankful for my awesome dog, Ellie Mae who loves me unconditionally!
I am thankful that I have a boyfriend willing to help me no matter what…
I have an awesome family that will drop anything to help me.
The list can go on and on…
Today I have been still- for the most part.Reflecting on things I have, people I have, what I am able to do in the moment!Stillness is very difficult for me. I’m constantly moving, making lists, trying to get my life “together”…trying to clean up the mess that is my life. I read an except of a book- can’t remember the name, sorry- basically saying that there is beauty in the mess that is your life. Nothing is ever perfect- even though I try my best to make t perfect, i never succeed and soon try to move on to the next task that will make my life “perfect”. It’s a constant battle and oh so tiring. Before my boyfriend left for class this morning, he told me to stay in bed and just rest… which I did for an hour and hike I drank my coffee. It was nice to just be still and enjoy that moment. I can’t remember the last time that I was still, enjoying the moment as is and not thinking of the million things I need to do. I am often trying to get my list done for the day. Today I had things to do- some I finished and most I didn’t and that’s okay… or at least I’m trying to make it okay…
Sitting here, sun beaming on me, breeze through my hair feels perfect for this moment. I think I’m where I’m supposed to be… I think my life is a mess and nowhere near perfect but I’m okay with that at the moment.
I have so much to be thankful for and just don’t take time to think of these things daily. I will do better…I am setting a goal to take a few minutes out of each day to name at least two to three things in thankful for each day!
Let me ask, what are y’all thankful for? Leave your answers in the comments please.