What is today?? No, but really….l

Hello all! How are y’all doing?

I am doing well. Enjoying coffee, nature and this beautiful weather in New England. Not looking forward to going back to work! But I’m looking forward to getting back to Texas! I always miss Texas when I’m gone.

I will say, I am having trouble remembering what the day it is. I’m discombobulated…. but I did see that today is National Writing Day so I decided to write. I wasn’t going to write while I was away but I can pass up today!

What to write about is the question….Maybe my “vacation” so far. It’s not really an actual vacation, I’m helping my grandfather that lives in Massachusetts make the big move to Texas to be closer to family! So this is an exciting but exhausting week for everyone involved! Moving is stressful but when it’s over state lines stress is increased!

We have had some fun this week…

1st let’s begin with a plane ride- I have not flown in 15 years due to fear and anxiety. So I did this! I didn’t worry about this at all!

on the second flight I even sat in the window seat! I even fell asleep for most of the flight! No panic attacks, increased anxiety or hyperventilation. I can do this more often now 🙂

Of course you cant go to Belchertown without going to Cindy’s- best ice cream and hot dogs around! I had the hazelnut ice cream! They have 100 flavors! Super yummy!

Then we took a stroll and a little hike through The Quabin Reservoir- which was beautiful as usual! It was peaceful and a good way to start the trip! It was a little chilly and of course I brought clothes appropriate for warmer weather.

We also had a quick visit with my uncles and princess Kensi- they treated us to lunch, drinks and good laughs!

Early this week I did get sick- extreme fatigue, nausea, chills, and inability to sleep. I had to get my family to stop at one point while driving so I could possibly vomit- just dry heaves happened thankfully. Since I was sick, I didn’t enjoy the good food up in the New England area. I stocked up on water and veggies. Finally by Wednesday I felt better but didn’t want to chance it so I had a salad for lunch. But looking back over the last year, I’ve really cleaned my body out and cook more healthy at home and rarely go out to eat so I think my body was in shock with all this food and a semi- long flight didn’t help and helped to increase fatigue in myself.

As I write this, we are waiting in our hotel waiting for a phone call for the house closing.

In conclusion, we are all ready to get back/to Texas. There is something about living in Texas- I always miss it. Texas is home, a community, and comfortable to me. This trip also symbolizes overcoming fear and anxiety!

I learned a very good lesson on this trip. Let me leave this with you, what things/experiences scare you, give you anxiety…but you would like to complete? What’s holding you back? I let my fear hold me back for 15 years and I missed so much. Don’t let that happen! Face your fears- you will be glad that you did!

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A Little Bit of Happiness

Here lately I have been writing about anxiety and my increased struggles with it at the moment. Everything I have written has been about this topic so I thought I would change up the mood on this blog for a bit. Not that struggling with anxiety is not important, just thought some happiness would be better at the moment.

With that being said I want to talk about things that make me happy. And in turn, things that make me happy decrease my anxiety.

  • Yoga- I have been practicing yoga consistently for three years which has helped my anxiety, strength, endurance. It also makes me very happy. It’s challenging which makes me feel accomplished after I meet a goal for a challenging pose. I finally accomplished crow pose after two years of trying. Sorry, I don’t have a picture of me completing crow pose but I promise it has happened! 💪🏻
  • Fun in the sun- I absolutely love relaxing in a pool, on a float, soaking in the rays of sunshine! That’s what I did today after a long weekend of helping my parents clean and organize their house in preparation of my grandpa moving to Texas. That’s a whole other story and blog post in the near future 🙂

myself, today at my parents pool!

  • A good cup of joe always makes me happy. It’s the only way to start off the day. Of course with cream and sugar!myself in the morning with a JT mug 🙂
  • Family makes me happy. I visit and see my immediate family once a week. We talk about our jobs, life, past memories, future endeavors, etc. We travel together, watch movies, go to concerts, go out to eat, grill out, etc.

Myself with my sister at the Dr Seuss museum

Myself with my mom at the Bon Jovi concert

Myself with my Sister in Mass in 2015

Myself with my Mom and Dad in Vermont 2015

  • A good pair of jeans is pure happiness- the way it fits every curve and increases my confidence.
  • Next on the list is my boyfriend! He helps with anything you ask, is caring, is loving and just an all around good person. He makes me smile everyday.
  • My sweet Ellie Mae is next. She is my goofy, loving bulldog who is also a little stubborn. She has been with me through some tough times and does help when I have an anxiety attack. Look at her face!

Ellie Mae and myself during Christmas 2016

I have several people and things that help make me happy. Sometimes I have to look through my journals and list of what makes me happy to increase my mood. I have to remind myself of the great people and things that I have in my life.

I urge you reading this to get out a pen and paper and make your list of things that make you happy. You will be surprised as to all the great things and people that you have in your life.

Until next time. ❤️

Stitch Fix day-yay❤️

For those who know me, know I love my Stitch Fix boxes! They always make me feel like it’s my birthday! A box delivered to my door full of rad clothes and accessories! Yes, please!

This gorgeous Kate Spade purse was a Stitch Fix purchase but not from my current box! I just wanted to show it off and remix y’all that Stitch Fix offers Kate Spade merchandise now!

Okay, now anytime a new box comes in, I have to get all dolled up and put a fashion show on! Don’t judge!! It helps me pick out my winning pieces! I’m talking full make up, hair, and loud music! Also it’s a good confidence booster…. so you can say it’s kinda like therapy!

Back to this box…..😜

First up are this cute pants by Cosmic Blue Love! Cute and comfy with a zip detail at the ankle. Can be paired with a cute tank top, cardigan, and sandals or wedges. Perfect for summer day!

My second pick is an off white halter top by Daniel Rainn. One of my favorite pieces from this box. It’s a light top, super cute and can be dressed up or worn casual- which I love!

This top also makes my arms look very toned…. or it could be all the yoga I’m doing… a combination of both maybe! In conclusion, this top is a winner!

Next up, is a maxi dress by Collective Concepts! I love floral prints and fell in love with this print! The color- not so much on my pale skin… and it also makes me look a little pregnant- haha!

See! And no, I’m not pregnant. I know some of you were thinking it. So because of the color, I did not pick this dress.

Ahhh yes! This beautiful maxi skirt by Gilli is to die for! I simply fell in love with it at first site…. then I donned it and that was it! When I tried it on, I knew the perfect top for it- another top I purchased from a past Stitch Fix box.

It’s the perfect skirt for a night or day on the town or even a date night 🙂 since a certain someone likes me in skirts 🙂 yes this one is a keeper a hundred percent!

Drumroll please!!!!!!!!

I’m about to show ya the last piece of the box… y’all ready!?!

This is a jumpsuit by Kaileigh that is absolutely stunning! I have yet to try on a jumpsuit until this was sent to me. I tried it on and was SOLD! Then I found out it had pockets and I screamed,” Take my money now!” Haha! Then I turned around….. and….

BAM- my booty progressed was seen! So thank you Riley(my Stitch Fix stylist) for making me feel like J.Lo! Yes, this one was a keeper!

Overall this box was a major success! If you haven’t tried Stitch Fix, I think ya should give it a try. It has definitely expanded my love for fashion and what I think looks decent on me!

Hope everyone is well❤️ sending positive vibes your way until next time!

A work in Progress….

I have been absent for a couple of weeks from this blog. I mean I have written a few reviews but that’s it. I have been busy with work, a lot of yoga, my wonderful boyfriend, and the continued work on myself. I have been…very happy. I can tell, others can tell as well. You want to see proof? Of course you do!

Not a perfect picture, my hair is in my face, I could name so many things wrong with this picture but I won’t. I’m just happy. And calm. And less anxious. And have a clearer plan of my life and what I would like to accomplish. As of this moment I am at peace with the last several years, what I’ve been through and I’m the happiest I have been in a long time! Now since we have talked I have been on a great adventure to a horror convention. Texas Frightmare Weekend was a blast the first weekend of May. This year I only attended Saturday- trying to stay in a budget- yay for adulting lol. You can read my post on Texas Frightmare Weekend for the details! I also saw Justin Timberlake for the third time-you can see my review on his tour for the details- you don’t want to miss that one!

Since these adventures, my anxiety has been creeping back in very slowly….

At the end of last year, I worked with a health coach/life coach which completely changed my life and my relationship with food…. how I view food, no more dieting and how I view my body. I did so much work on myself at that time and it set me free from dieting but my negative thoughts have been creeping back in lately. The thinking I’m fat, pulling at fat, criticizing myself in front of every mirror, every picture is under a microscope. I’ve had to revert back to my journal from that time with the life coach to calm my mind…. which has helped some. I’ve noticed the binge eating is back mildly…. I’ve been trying to eat something healthy each day, pay attention to my feelings when I’m eating and making sure that I’m actually hungry when eating and not eating due to emotions. Man, this is difficult for me but it does get better…. Now, I do work out but as of the last week I had a few days off, wasn’t as active and my water intake was below my average. When that happens, it throws my mood off and the negativity starts to come back. Even though I know this, it will still happen, which is frustrating.

I canceled my gym membership– or it’s on my list to do 🙂 I do workouts at home, go to yoga classes consistently! I enjoy my workouts, I’m not a slave to the gym. I absolutely hate the gym!

I do yoga at home with Ellie Mae. I also love going to CommUNITY yoga! It’s a great but super tough work out. I mean I feel like I’m going to die, but somehow I find the strength to finish- kinda like trials that I’m going through. Yoga has helped me put a different perspective on situations and see all situations differently and from all angles. I handle life with more calmness now which is so much different than I used to be. Any situation would throw me into an anxious mode and throw my whole day off- now I just handle things as they come…no worries. I mean I still have my anxious days but they are far less in between.

Yoga has taught me to let go and to BREATHE! You know how difficult it is to breathe? Not very but difficult to consciously remind my body to take deep breaths and not hold my breath. I hold on to so much just by holding my breath- so it helps me to start the day with a simple yoga sequence and meditation. I have several sequences in books and on my Pinterest page. If y’all want me to do a blog about that, let me know and I would be glad to!

Hopefully this message will find who needs it… and you will begin healing and or continue to heal!❤️